Geezer wrote:
I was a Christian fundamentalist for 40 years, and for 27 of those years I was associated with an extremist group of hard line fundamentalist. About 10 years before I took any definitive action to extricate myself from that environment I began to acknowledge that much of what I said I believed didn’t make sense. I also began to acknowledge that the bible was filled with inconsistent and contradictory teaching and some parts of it were just not believable as written.
All of that motivated me to begin studying and researching religious history. I read and researched the bible, Christianity, Gnosticism, Second Temple Judaism, The Dead Sea Scrolls, Paganism, and other related subjects extensively for about six years. That research eventually encouraged me to reject Christianity but not God.
Like many others I eventually evolved into acknowledging a collection of reasoned and logical premises that are commonly associated with Deism. I later came to realize that I was a Deist, and had been one for quite some time. I apparently became a Deist long before I was aware of Deism as an identifiable way of acknowledging God’s existence.
I recently read Born Again Deist, by Professor Beth Houston. I’ve found it interesting to learn how similar many Deist conversion experiences are.
My story is similar although I was a mainstream Methodist who started doubting and then I learned about Jefferson and deism before I was 20. It was a painful transition, and things didn't really gel for many years when I finally gave up any vestiges of my old religion like divine providence, fate and prophesy--and came to understand the prime importance of free will. After that, the pieces of the Big Picture puzzle started almost putting themselves in place.
Welcome to the board.